So I put little Honey Bunny on the bus today. So sweet he is and SO skinny!! Reminds me of myself at that age. He was actually nervous today. I could tell. He has never been nervous about going to school. He loves school but this year he has grades and SOL's and he has a teacher that gives a lot of homework so I think he had some butterflies. I too have some butterflies today. I am nervous and excited for him but I am also nervous and excited for me. I have about two and a half months until my marathon. I was originally going to do Chicago which is about a month away but I got too tangled up in my overalls and had been having crappy runs and some emotional issues with those crappy runs so I decided to beg off and cancel that one and stick with Richmond which is in November. Thus giving me more time to mull over my crappy runs and hopefully learn something from them. What I have learned is this...I have to lose some weight!!!!!!! Oh My Gawd if I could just lose 40 pounds, I know I could run faster!!!! So just had to get that out. That is really just the pity party that has been going on in my head for the past few months. I swore up and down that I would not return to the bus stop the same weight as in June. And here I am. But you know, I realized that the problem wasn't that I failed once again at the diet thing - it was that I failed to plan correctly. How the hell am I supposed to lose a bunch of weight when I have little Honey Bunny home all the time wanting to go get slurpee's and ice cream. How do you drop some l b's when all you have in your house is ham and cheese and pirate booty because that is the healthiest thing you can get down your little 8 year old's gullet? And let's not even get started with the snow cones and cotton candy at Busch Gardens and the baseball games. Oh and I have some sweet memories of some margaritas and beers by my good friend's pool. Oh and the Dave Matthews Band shows. Yum. Did I mention that I just got home from the beach (Gorgeous Kiawah Island) where diet mayhem insued? (Hint...Shrimp and Grits)
Deep Breath In.
Let it go.
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O.K.
So the summer is a crappy time to start dieting. Who knew? Well I should have if I thought about it long enough. The pressure we women put on ourselves always astounds me. If I have heard it once, I have heard it a million times. "When my kids get on that bus I am going to...(fill in the blank here with your lofty goal)" You know, how about a little goal? How about, when my kids get on that bus I am going to, make my bed, brush and floss my teeth, drink a glass of water (most of you need to put down that bloody mary anyway!!!) meditate, put in a load of laundry, clean out one drawer. My goal today was to blog because I have missed it terribly. So here I am, already 10AM and I have reached my goal. Wow - what an accomplishment. Yeah Me!!!!!! There is some commercial that I really like and for the life of me I can't figure out what the product is but it has something to do with making good choices and how one choice begats another. So if you are eating a donut and you take the elevator and you eat pizza for lunch and you have a latte in the afternoon and you stay up late watching tv then your life is basically shit and it is your fault. BUT if you eat some magic happy healthy bar in the morning, take the stairs, eat a salad for lunch, drink some water and go to bed early, then oh happy day you deserve an award. So one thing at a time ladies and gentlemen, let's eat the magic happy healthy bar and pat ourselves on the back. I think the rest will come later and naturally.
Personally I am patting myself on the back for just getting little honey bunny on the bus today all in one piece. We survived another summer together and now he is a third grader. And I have another chance to regain my composure and dive head first into reaching my goals. Today I start with a brand new notebook and a brand new pen. Much like my son.
